I finally get to start going out after detaching myself from people. I haven’t been going out this much for awhile now ever since I decide to be alone lately. Most of the time, I feel like I’m too old to be going around the party circuit (Until I see the other party animals who are a decade older than I am HAHA).
I haven’t got drunk for the longest time, if only for the reason that I might kill myself sooner than I expect WAHAHA. The past few nights have been a disappointment, though. it’s like I have been drinking up to relieve myself of the overdue holiday stress. The alcohol intake is still much less compared to my old nocturnal habits aka siraan-ng-buhay portion-no-I-won’t-passed-out, but it’s enough to make my hyperacidity start planning its revenge on me soon. I have been telling everyone that I’ll be better once the holidays are over. I’m still crossing my fingers for it.
Whenever I’m out, at some point of the night, I find myself wondering what it’s all about. Not life hmmkay? But going out per se. Why do I bother? What am I doing? Why I have to spend this amount of money to have a good time? Am I really enjoying the company of these people? And the only answer I can come up with is, “at least the music is good.” the places i go to, I choose to go to based on the music that would be played on a certain night. For instance, HipHop nights are a no-no for me now, unless the girl friends are with me. Any bar featuring an acoustic band that serves revivals of sappy songs is something worth avoiding. Bars that brag about their “showbands” that perform in tacky outfits and hash out lousy remakes of “Build Me Up Buttercup” and 70s disco medleys are on officially blacklisted.
I now prefer places that play obscure music which are hard to find, even in Torrent. I’m looking for lounge music on slow nights that beg for hitting the “pause button” of life. up-and-coming local indie rock and alternative artists. It’s now always about the music and the people who can appreciate it as much as I do. Don’t get me wrong, I still enjoy listening to mainstream music.
Still. I’m getting too tired with all these semi-pointless nights out.
